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A new book about Beethoven gathers together (and completely rewrites and supplements) my blog posts on Beethoven into a short introduction to the composer, Ways of Hearing Beethoven, which I hope to see published. My novel The Fall of the Berlin Wall, completed a year ago, is about musicians and particularly the intense, irrepressible daughter of the legendary pianist featured in my previous novel Hungry Generations, now fifteen years after those events. Five years ago, my 2015 novel, The Ash Tree, was published by West of West Books in conjunction with the April 24, 2015 centenary of the Armenian genocide; it's about an Armenian-American family and the sweep of their history in the twentieth century - particularly from the points of view of two women in the family.
There are three other novels of mine, which I would love to see published. One is Pathological States, about a physician's family in L.A. in 1962. Another is Hungry Generations, about a young composer's friendship in L.A. with the family of a virtuoso pianist, published on demand by iUniverse, which I think would be of value to a conventional publisher. A Burnt Offering - a fable (a full rewriting and expansion of my earlier Acts of Terror and Contrition - a nuclear fable) is my political novella about Israel and its reactions to the possibility of a war with Iran (with the fear that it will be a nuclear war).
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Saturday, January 26, 2013

Comments (restored) on Orhan Pamuk’s "Silent House" by Daniel Melnick

 The voices of our parents and grandparents do not cease haunting us, for their distant singing or remembered cries can continue to fill our inner ear. Coming to terms with that intense chorus is a task taken up in the multi-generational novel, and a brilliant example is Turkish Nobel-prize winner Orhan Pamuk’s Silent House, which wonderfully captures the multiple voices of three generations – turbulent youth, burdened middle-age, and the wizened old.

The voices of six main characters narrate alternate chapters in the beautifully structured counterpoint of this novel (akin to the structure of modern novels by Virginia Woolf or William Faulkner). This work is the second of Pamuk’s ten books but is only now translated. The novel’s characters are members of a fading bourgeois Turkish family. It is the summer of 1980, when deadly clashes between fascist and communist paramilitary groups flared in Turkey; the novel explores the forces in Turkish society which cause such violence and yield  the military coup at the end of 1980.
The youngest of Pamuk’s six narrators is Hasan, a confused, resentful teenaged cousin who rages against society and belongs to a fascist youth group. He acts out in ways which violently affect his well-off cousins and propel him toward a menacing destiny in Istanbul. “All our country’s sorrows,” he ends by saying, “are on account of some bastards who just enjoy playing with us, but one day I’m going to make fun out of their games. I don’t know yet what it is that I’m going to do, but…Watch out for me from now on!” (324-5)
The family which cousin Hasan’s actions tragically affect is made up of a leftist sister – Nilgun, a lovely college student – and her two brothers (one is a teenager, and the other is an alcoholic historian in his thirties, who plays a role at the start of Pamuk’s third novel, The White Hotel). The rest of this enmeshed family consists of the aged grandmother, Fatma, and her perceptive, compassionate housekeeper, a dwarf, who is the illegitimate son of the late grandfather yet “tries to take care of everybody.” (305)  The three grandchildren are visiting their grandmother’s home, which has served them since childhood as an alluring, summer beach house near Istanbul.
Fatma, ninety and frail, is vigilant about behavior in her household yet unable even to know what happens there. Feeling trapped at night in the upstairs bedroom of the silent house, she thinks often of death and especially about her deceased husband, a bitterly disappointed intellectual who never completed his enlightened skeptic’s encyclopedia and whose starkly secular voice haunts her reveries and much of the novel: “we all sink into Nothingness, Fatma;…you decay down to the last strand of hair, with no right even to hope of coming back again.” (297)
At the core of this novel’s power are the moments of existential self-confrontation experienced by the six vivid narrating characters, and particularly by Fatma, who is haunted by her late husband – this cranky, nearly voiceless old woman to whom Pamuk gives a voice. Analyzed almost unto death by her late husband, she feels her interior life spill helplessly out of her, enraged and excoriated: “it’s as though my outside has become my inside and my inside my outside, and in the dark I can’t figure out which one I am.” (331)
The grandchild who most shares Fatma’s alarmed self-awareness is the historian in his thirties, Faruk. And his crisis arises partly from his doubt about writing history. He has come to see the writing of history as pure storytelling, in his time and place in Turkey and not only there (for, of course, corrupting deception and self-deception exist not only in Asia Minor). Faruk’s self-consciousness about what he does is shared by Pamuk himself, and the works of this great novelist – for example, My Name Is Red and Snow – become increasingly ambitious in content and narrative experiment. These wonderful novels are invariably filled with moving characters like Fatma, Faruk, and even dangerous Hasan, who struggle to fabricate their identities in the midst of a collapsing society and, so, to “make sense of the world by means of tales.” (165)

Monday, January 14, 2013

Fifth excerpt from "Acts of Terror and Contrition"

Please do order the full novel from Amazon. What follows is the fifth excerpt (with the Conclusion now added, below) from my novella about Israel and unrecorded acts of terror and contrition during the 1990 Iraq War with the threat to Israel of Iraqi missiles and the danger that they might carry nuclear payloads. [See February 2012 posts for the previous three excerpts.] One strong motivation to write this novella was my desire to reinforce a sense of the great danger of nuclear radiation and nuclear weapons - a danger powerfully explained by Jonathan Schell's The Fate of the Earth and The Abolition (Stanford Nuclear Age Series).
The entire short novel has been published by CreateSpace. As I wrote above, please consider ordering it through Amazon.com or Barnes and Noble etc. The link to the novel on Amazon is in the column to the right (the book also contains eight stories of the nineteen-eighties printed after the text of "Acts of Terror and Contrition" about the 1990 war; in addition, in 2004 I published a novel about the expatriate community in Los Angeles, Hungry Generations, and in 2015 my novel came out about Armenians in the aftermath of the 1915 genocide, living in Fresno, California - The Ash Tree):

            Headquarters of the government were a half-mile from the Intelligence building.  Arie drove over through the crystalline morning, and now he sat facing the Prime Minister across the large rectangular table, and on the two sides between them sat four ministers of the Cabinet.  It was not the first time that the Special Operations chief had attended a meeting of this advisory group, the Prime Minister’s inner circle.
           Arie watched as Yitzhak, sitting across the table, narrowed his brown eyes in a glance of rage directed down at the polished wood of the tabletop.  As his ministers’ voices emptied their passionate rhetoric onto the table, the thin lips of Yitzhak’s mouth were shut, his convictions in check, his allegiances indecipherable, though disgust glared from his face – his eyes were open only a crack.
            “I must have order,” he said, his voice taut with strain and ire.  The shouts diminished, and the small dynamo of a man glanced around the table.  “I will have order at such a moment.  Israel faces the gravest threat she has ever faced.  We must be resolute and controlled; if we dissipate ourselves with shouts and wailing, there is no hope.  Each of us needs to present his views in a nutshell.  I want to hear us go around the table; today there must be order.  First Benjamin, then Moshe, Dov, Guela, Arie, and then we’ll return to me.”
            The Foreign Minister, who sat to Yitzhak’s left, spoke first.  Benjamin was a large man, with an imposing head and graying curly hair.  He made an effort to tame his handsomeness, closely to crop his hair, to hunch his shoulders, to mute his mellifluous voice.  He seemed to drone on, yet finally his voice filled the Prime Minister’s office with a sort of incantation to American power, a call to participate in their military command of the region.  Benjamin held his head perfectly still as he talked on.  “The fact is that the Americans and NATO are always there to help us.  They are confronting Iraq for us!” It was as if his rote analysis emerged from a frozen hulk and not from a human being.  “As for Saddam’s Scuds, the Americans are sending us MIM-104’s—the Patriot air-defense system.” Arie saw the Prime Minister frowning at the head of the table.  Outrage spoke from his narrowed eyes; Yitzhak would reject hopeless subservience.  He would act with care and force in order to stop the plummet toward a nuclear war.
            Immediately, as Benjamin concluded, the Defense Minister’s electric voice started.  Moshe had a tense, intelligent face and anonymous, gray eyes.  “NATO and the Americans cannot defend us from Iraq.  That is crap!” The Minister was devoted to the military, to the expertise of the generals he represented, their arsenal of tactics and weapons.  “We must,” his voice crackled, “undertake a pre-emptive strike against Iraq.”
            “Yes,” shouted Dov, the Interior Minister, over Moshe’s voice.  “We must strike first.  Given what we have learned today, the day must not pass without our declaring war.”
            “I will have order,” the Prime Minister bellowed, and Dov fell back into silence.
            “I don’t mean war,” Moshe’s electric and efficient voice continued.  “I mean protecting the security of our cities.  I mean mounting a surgical strike to remove Saddam.”
            As Moshe finished, there were wrenched shouts around the table, and now the Interior Minister broke in earnest into speech.
            “Moshe, that would mean war, that would mean victory, and I welcome it.” Dov, with his square jaw and heavy mustache, talked on, sitting with an unlikely solidity as his voice flared out.  “If we do not fight this war, striking first and immediately, Israel will be destroyed, and at the least another bloody Nebuchadnezzar will ransack and rule us.  At the least.  My friends, what do the Americans offer us in this dark hour, when the final cards are to be played out here? They offer nothing but ultimatums and useless Patriots.  Bush is playing chicken with Saddam Hussein.  It is suicide for the state of Israel to submit to such a grotesque command structure, to a lethal game between clowns and fools.  It is suicide to lie down as Iraq threatens to destroy us.  It is suicide if we do not teach them a lesson once and for all.  The security of our future generations depends on what we decide here, and we betray our sacred birthright and our future if we do not fight this war.”
            “Are we worthy of our birthright, Dov?” Guela’s sarcastic voice broke the silence which the Interior Minister’s speech had generated.  She was a diminutive, well-dressed woman, with a sharp, ironic face; the Energy Minister’s hair was richly dark and thick with streaks of gray and pulled back into an austere and heavy bun.
            “Perhaps the Iraqis are merely an instrument to punish us,” she said.  “Perhaps we have overused the fiction of our birthright to justify aggression and intolerance.  Security, it is all you—any of you—speak of.  It’s understandable, but the truth is that our obsession with security is our curse.  Always we make ourselves bear its burdens; always our gains and losses are matters of apocalyptic pride and guilt, always at the expense of others and ourselves.  This one time, Mr.  Prime Minister, we must give up the fiction of security.  If we are to continue to endure, let alone to grow as a nation, we must accept the reality of the present situation.  I can only agree with Benjamin.  We must let our generals join with the Americans, yes, patiently accepting a limited and subordinate position now.”
            The Special Operations Chief poised himself for speech, for the words which would present the best Intelligence at hand and establish a framework for the decision to be made by the Prime Minister, who calmly frowned now at his group of advisors.  He felt as if he were poised on a precipice and about to address a churning sea.  He had now to project his will not only in his bluntly technical manner, but in a visionary way.  His words would be his own, and yet it occurred to Arie that the listening Ministers must now more than ever believe they were hearing Rami’s voice, living on into the next generation.
            “The logic of the intelligence gathered over the past twenty-four hours is the logic of nuclear war.” The Ministers were still and silent before him.  Arie held up to them the classic analysis of the Great War, equating the present rush of events to the unhinging of the Balkans in l9l4.  Now as then, each country was not shaping events but merely reacting to them as they unfolded, and each felt the need to face down its enemies at all costs.  The politicians, the generals, and the ideologues were determined not simply to exact guarantees or reprisals—no, they were seizing the opportunity to destroy what menaced them.  Yet each party declared the legality of its hostility—the American operation mandated by the United Nations and international law, the Iraqis also by treaties and laws, above all by Islamic law.  Now, in the midst of the chaos, Iraq was poised to attack Israel, and there was a high probability that its missiles were equipped with nuclear payloads.  At the same time, Washington demanded that Israel not act, even as the Americans themselves threatened unilaterally to act.
            The Middle East was stumbling once more through the region of ultimatums, contradictory and deadly, enacting again the prelude to the first World War, the chaos when the only order finally was the mad order of fratricide and millions dead.  The conclusion of such an analysis, the synthesis of this implacable dialectic, was an apocalyptic war enveloping the region and beyond.  The world must be warned, Arie said.
            The images of the century’s two total wars fed his will as he spoke.  When he described the tie of the present chaos to the First World War, he thought of the lock-step inevitability characterizing the Second, turning war into a machine, a chamber of death.  He spoke with a tone of unbending, detached will, which was his gift and curse.  Concluding now, the Intelligence Chief saw that his analysis achieved the effect he sought.  Yitzhak would act as he must.
            “In all the recommendations I have heard this morning,” Arie was concluding, “I have heard no one confront the deepest issue here.  No one has offered any hope for escape from nuclear war, and that is the danger we face.  We must look deeper.  The region is stumbling toward nuclear destruction.  We must establish the operational conditions by which it can be avoided.  We have the responsibility—and it may be our last chance—to warn the world that it must turn away from this abyss.  I believe the time has come for us not to destroy our enemies, not to hold the world hostage, not even to defend our security, but to use our nuclear resources to warn the world of what is at stake.”
            Shouting broke out in the room as Arie began describing one of the plans he had conceived: a symbolic warning, the detonation of one of Israel’s nuclear bombs above a remote, southerly region of the Indian Ocean.  He could barely make out their individual responses as the Prime Minister bellowed for order.  Moshe was furious, Guela appalled.
“Never—the last resort,” Benjamin said, as Dov shouted simultaneously, “Not enough.  No one will pay any heed.”
            “We must hear out every view,” the Prime Minister cut in, “no matter how extreme.  I must have order.”
            Silence descended.  As Yitzhak began to speak, it was clear that he had planned all along to follow Benjamin’s lead further into chaos.  He did not understand the extremity of their collective fate.  Arie was chilled and suddenly unable to listen.


            He drove back to his operations building with its bunker-like design, as if returning to a siege.  In his office, the late morning sun angled in at the edge of his windows facing toward the ancient town.  He gazed from his desk.  Among the framed photographs attached to the wall, there was a plaque with a yellow ceramic roofing tile mounted behind glass.  The granular surface of one half was melted into a glaze the color of caked blood.  Uncle Morris in America had given Arie the ceramic when he was a child.  It was from the roof of a Nagasaki home, and Arie’s uncle had got it during his service as a US Army pathologist at the close of World War Two.  Arie had not been allowed near it as a child.  Though the degree of radiation was relatively slight, the danger was still there.  Even now many decades after the American atomic bomb had burst over Nagasaki, vaporizing its buildings and human beings, even now this tile—found a mile from ground zero and burned the color of coagulation—would without the glass insulation be a danger.  And now Tel Aviv and Jerusalem itself could become so many irradiated tiles ringing a hole in earth.
            If Yitzhak’s government did not see the need to act against it, then he must be the instrument of action.  Alone he would strive to create a warning more profound than any the Arab terrorists had engineered with mortar and hostage.  It would be a warning worthy of the insoluble paradox, the double-bind of relations now among nations—in the Middle East and everywhere that the belief in power strangled realism and reality itself.  He would reveal the world to itself, for this war must never be fought.
            This morning, though, he had deceived himself.  He admired Yitzhak’s political acumen and the values, which seemed to endure in him.  The Prime Minister had witnessed the Holocaust, and Arie believed that what Yitzhak’s generation witnessed should have burned shortsightedness from their souls.  Self-blind, he sought his father’s spirit in the bold Prime Minister.  Haunted by this specter, he searched for it where it could not be found, not even in Rami himself, in the protean old man grown tired and white-haired.
When his mother died over a decade ago, his father had been still filled with vigor, his hair black, his eyes alert.  Arie was an assistant then to the previous head of Intelligence.  The phone call had come from his father, calm and in grief.  He drove the hours to Naharia on the Mediterranean coast.  PLO guerrillas had lobbed a rocket into the sea-coast sky, and it landed in the market square, exploding at the feet of two playing children who died instantly, their bodies ripped and mashed.  And his mother, who had been shopping at the vegetable stands, was lifted from the ground and thrown into the street.  Magda lay half-conscious in the hospital bed when Arie arrived, her legs bandaged, her chest swathed in gauze.  Arie sat before her.  Her face was inert: the thick, mask-like pads of her cheeks.  Tears flowed from him.
            That afternoon, she awoke and seemed to regain strength.  In the evening Elena drove in from Jerusalem with little Moshe.  When they visited her each afternoon, a self-conscious smile would open on her face, and she sat up to hold Moshe on her lap, murmuring over him, combing her fingers through the black hair on his small head.  In the early evenings, he and his father would walk together about the town, drifting by the scarred market, the Roman ruins just outside the city, and the museum of Nazi atrocities.  They wandered and spoke of the need to heal the wound which Israel had become, and it was then that his vision grew, the commingling in him of the ardent and the ruthless.
            Internal hemorrhaging began on Monday; she began to ramble, believing it was thirty years earlier and the stench of the death camp was in the hospital room.  She rose in her bed, glaring out the window at the sea.
Now, in the top floor of his Intelligence building, he reached to open his desk drawer.  Next to the Luger his father had retrieved from the camp, Arie picked up the envelope with sheets of paper inside, found in his mother’s hospital bedside table.  He hunched at his desk as he read through her letter, coming once more to the last page:
Dear Arie,
I lie here on the bed, writing—forgive my uneven hand.  Because I can’t face speaking to you, Arie.  It could have struck home.  There could be no I to write this down, no fat hand and body with my thick skin, my iron stomach, with all the pain and rage I can’t express, all my efforts to keep up our face.  Even in the camps, it was so.  How can I be this person? I eat the pills they give me.  It must be like morphine, this sensation of losing track.  Everything is quiet and artificially lit.  You turn the corner, and an atrocity roars at your feet.  Each time you see something impossible.
            What must you think of me, who can’t quite concentrate on you or anyone, can’t bring off the face I try to save.  What would they all say if Rami’s wife were a disgrace, a fool, a shrew?
*
            You know, I always feared I would diminish him.  I made myself feel I could.  That the responsibilities were mine too.  There he would be.  The same man: Rami hasn’t changed since the liberation.  The black eyes blazing through gold-rimmed glasses, the shock of black hair, never grey even now when he’s sixty-five, the powerful lips and nose and chin; inside me I see his face.  And I feel responsible for him, even now.
            When the final day of independence came—you were almost three—and we knew that it was war, Rami was constantly in meetings with our generals, with our politicians, and secretly with the enemies’.  Each hour his world would shatter and be reborn, and always he appeared to be the same man, thin, tall, steady, meeting each moment of celebration or war as if he always understood it would be so.  But then he came home, and I was there to see the cost.  I should not say.  Certain things are beyond who we usually are.  I respect your father.  The more because I know his memories, his rage, the dread in his voice, the heart close to stopping.  He is a great man.
            Yet my body ached for days at a time as if he beat me, though my God only a few times has he come close to unleashing his hands upon me.  My soul and body ached from the twists and turns within him, and each mood, with a glance, without saying, never even admitting it to himself, somehow each mood was secretly my responsibility.
*
            You know the pride within him.  Do you know Rami’s guilt? The guilt when he was one of the youngest in the first government, when the Atzel gangs rushed to avenge an eye for an eye and kill our Arab neighbors, hundreds, even children, at Deir Yassin before our independence, and afterwards at Qibya and at Kfar Kasem.  I don’t only mean the wars since and the bleeding of our people and our enemies.  Rami’s conscience is a hammer of steel ruling even his vengeance when our babies were murdered at Avivia, at Quiryat Shemona.  When our athletes, some your friends, were assassinated in Munich.  Each time our nation has bled, Rami kept back a part of himself from rage.  In that part the deeper negotiations of guilt have taken place.  And all the more since the Six Day War when we took the Palestinian lands.  The Palestinian camps.  That is the word he insists on.
Rami feels the same guilt for those earlier camps.  This I can’t understand.  I simply watch.  And I have screamed, incensed.  Because there is a limit.  I’m not enough of a person to feel the conscience which is alive in your father, the dark flower of our thousands of years.
*
            I will write the words; blame the fog the painkillers bring.  After Auschwitz, in the holding camp, how I gave myself up to the pain and the flow of blood and you yielded up from inside, how you sucked at my nipples and your hands—with all ten fingers perfect—your tiny hands would hold and gently pummel my breasts, how you smelled of urine and curdled milk and excrement and I would wipe the brown ooze off your tiny buttocks and your kicking legs—the strands of your hair, the blue of your eyes, and every second of day and night I breathlessly clung to you: starved but freed, I was hungry to touch you, to shield you, to kiss you constantly and murmur always into the baby’s ears.
For months as we were moved about, on our way to Eretz Israel, I was hypnotized by you.
            And Rami loved you more than I can say.  But I know that mixed in with his wonder was an unimaginable guilt that we had brought you into the world.  My rock of a husband.  He was shattered by our debt to you.
            This fog thickens.  I don’t know where my legs are sometimes; this paper and pen sometimes disappear.  I remember the rocket whooshing in.  The sun was baking my back.  I saw the crystal blue of the Mediterranean stretching beyond the town.  Then I heard it rushing in, cracking the air closer.  Not all your Intelligence could keep that Palestinian rocket from finding its way to me walking in the burning sun.  I felt spun into the sky, wheeling, and then slowly circling.  Now when you and the others visit, I see you revolve slowly before me.  We are all weightless and irradiated with a special light.  Not like Mediterranean light at all.  Now it turns to fog which closes in on my hand as I write, on my mouth when I speak.
              Her cry pulsed through him, along with all she had not said.  His fingers rooted into his hair and pressed into his skull.  He leaned his weight down on his elbows.  He saw before him the herd of stripped human beings and the robot overseers with their souls dead within them: his mother had been one of the ravaged, naked animals.  Gall rose in his throat, and a cry shook his body.  Rage welled from the hidden source, flooding his eyes; his flesh shook with his mother’s knowledge, his own.  Loathing and an urgent visionary will to life churned within him as his hands released his skull and reached for the phone.  He would act on his own.  It would be for the sake of Israel and the world. 
*                                  *                                  *
A narrow highway cut through the Negev near the southern end of the Dead Sea.  Desert sand, stretching out to the horizon, surrounded the domed central reactor, the erect chimney, the camps of new low buildings, and the ring of missiles.
            A young weapons engineer dressed in a silver, radiation-proof suit walked across the compound at Demeanor, and he looked out at the highway and the endless sand, burning even in the late September sun, the desert blooms of spring now dried to scrub and blown by Negev winds.  The man entered one of the squat structures, passed through building security and contamination control, and set to work on an assignment he had been alerted to before noon.  On the tables of this research and assembly plant rested four large black leather cases brought here at noon.  In the past hour, the weapons team had reinforced the suitcases with shielding, and the young technician’s job was to fit special braces inside one of the black cases and install a nuclear device.
            Four tactical weapons had been retrieved from the plant arsenal.  The idea of using ten-kiloton bombs had been held in abeyance for years, and these small weapons were among the few that were kept in readiness.
            The young man installed the braces and helped to mount one of the small sheathed and triggered atomic devices into the case he worked with.  The impact of ten thousand tons of TNT, exploded in a train station or a hotel, would be complete incineration in a circle of six blocks, buildings turned to rubble in a circle of twenty blocks, a firestorm sweeping a circle of forty blocks, and a cloud of fallout irradiating an oval several miles long.  The technician lifted the little bomb from the metallic table, and set the case slowly to the ground.  It weighed sixty pounds.
            Half dozen men took the four suitcases from the Dimona installation.  It was Thursday afternoon.  The room seemed vacant as the young man joined in clearing and decontaminating the area in which the team had worked.  Slowly walking back through contamination control, leaving his metallic suit behind, he passed security again, and listlessly exited the building.  The Negev sun blinded him, and momentarily all he saw was a blackened disc suspended above the fiery land.
*                                  *                                  *
            The Schneider’s compact, yellow family car made its way past Nachlat Schiva where Rami lived, and it headed to the Moslem quarter, north of the Old City.  It was the day before Yom Kippur eve, and Elena was alone, driving to visit Jena, the Arab woman who had helped raise her.
            She passed a knot of men in hats and with fringed tallises showing beneath their coats.  They raised their fists at her as she drove through their neighborhood.  One man ran into the street and threw a stone at the car; it scampered down the empty sun-bleached street.  Elena gripped the steering wheel tightly; her head was erect, her red hair tied back in a severe bun.  She sped her car away.
            Jena and she had not talked for over a year.  Yet on this day there was a need, an urgency, to reach beyond the circle of her life.  At 9 AM, she had called the old Palestinian woman and invited herself over for a visit.
At noon, Elena had dropped Gily at Grandma’s house.  The short, bright, gray-haired woman had agreed to babysit for a few hours.  Elena’s mother had come to Israel from New York for a year, after independence, in order to join a kibbutz, one of the nation’s earliest socialist communes.  And she had stayed to marry the son of the founder.  Multilingual, Mrs.  Milstein had worked as a gifted teacher of English and French.
            When Elena was born, her mother wanted to name her Helene, but her father had prevailed.  Then, after his early death, the daughter had drawn close to her mother, and she came to share the older woman’s perspective not only toward names and words.  She felt her mother’s American doubt about Israel’s orthodoxy, its provincialism, the rancor and rigidity its survival seemed to necessitate.  The doubt found crude outlets in her American refrigerator, the Italian ceramics, the Cuisinart.  Often it would well up, intolerable and unpredictable.
            Now she drove down a street of dusty Arab tenements.  As she parked and locked her car, children ringed her, chanting a taunting song.  A little girl Gily’s age, but sallow and thin, put out her hand at the woman in her fine knitted dress.  Elena bore herself carefully through the street, not looking at the stream of Moslems flowing about her.  She found Jena’s apartment and knocked.  The plump, white-haired Palestinian opened the door and admitted her to her tiny living room with an oriental carpet on the floor and a threadbare couch.
            “Forgive my small place,” the old woman said.  She sat down to serve dark sweet coffee and rounds of pocket bread with sesame tahini and honey.
            “Oh Jena,” Elena said, gesturing toward her friend.  “I’m glad to see you.”
            “How is your mother?”
            “She’s retired from teaching.  Last year.  She’s fine.”
            “She was a fine teacher.  She taught me, you know.  English.  Correct Hebrew.”
            “I know,” Elena smiled.
            “How are your children?”
            “Gily is seven,” she began.  She explained that her daughter was spending the afternoon with her mother and Moshe was visiting his great-uncle in America.  As she spoke, it seemed impossible to make these fragments of her life coherent, let alone alive to this elderly guide from childhood, this stranger.  Arie had not come home last night, and his secretary had called in the morning that he would be tied up in the extraordinary meeting of the Cabinet.  She was alone, isolated from her husband’s world, yet trapped inside it.  There must be a life beyond, and she needed to confirm that it was there.  Yet she did not want to impose on Jena, more than she already had.
           “How is your son, Jena?” she asked softly.
The old woman seemed not to hear, but then she began: “He lives near the Old City, but he seldom visits me.  It’s very sad, Elena.  He says he would not impose his sorrow and bitterness on me.  I feel sorry for my Sayeed.  But there is nothing I can do.” After another pause, she continued, “I’ve told you about the village where I grew up.  For generations my family lived on the edge of that hilltop town.  There were little houses of red stone, sweet yellow jasmine.  And then below, on the slopes of the hills, there were big terraces rung with stones and groves of olive.  Those big black trees were planted by my ancestors hundreds of years ago.”
            “Yes.”

            “And then there was the naqbah,” Jena said in Arabic.  “The catastrophe.”

            “I know, Jena,” Elena said bitterly, with silent tears suddenly in her eyes.  “Oh shit, I can’t bear it.  My God, your son will never inherit your olive trees.  This petty little country, how can we go on, all the time pretending we’re so pure and moral? Since long before the intifada, your people have suffered so.”
            “What’s to be done? The olive trees shrivel because the Israelis take all the water.  But now we are struggling for justice.  We will survive.” Jena’s voice was calm, without rancor, yet not comforting.  “What do the children chant? ‘A hen has a home.  A rabbit has a home.  Where is the Palestinian’s home?’”
            “That’s why I sent Moshe to visit another country, to America, so he can see how to try to be free of this injustice, this racist hatred,” Elena said, though America was not the answer for her or her children.
            “To America?” Jena’s brown, wrinkled face smiled.  Her voice was severe, detached, speaking to this woman whom she had diapered and fed and taught to cook.  “Elena, the Americans built their first settlements on the skulls of Indians.”


Part Four

Yom Kippur

Saturday, September 29, 1990

The sun rose over the city, and the dawn flowed in on Haim who sat cross-legged on the bed. Outside the fifth-floor window, Paris did not exist. He no longer inhabited his tingling body. There was the scent of ionized oxygen in the room. His skin and stomach were in pain. His sensations were signs of decomposition in the corpse to which he was attached. Whatever life remained was concentrated in the black rectangle sitting in the center of the room. If any will had survived in him, Haim would have killed what remained of himself. He registered the morning silence punctuated by murmurs and ticks of sound. The apartment door was smashed open, and Haim welcomed the bullets piercing his head and chest, throwing his body against the wall.

Dan slept fitfully on the living room couch, always dimly aware of the guest in the bedroom closet. The telephone, which might ring with further instructions, took on a grotesque life. He had left on the television set, which buzzed and flaked before him. Through the early hours of Saturday, bored and riveted, he had kept watching the American coverage of the crisis: A heightened alert had been put in place across the world; still Arie’s threat could have an effect. Maybe the powers that be would use the chaos of rioting and protests across the world as an excuse to pull back from the abyss. His thoughts had grown gradually diffuse. He could not rest, and he watched the trembling television screen. His taut and vigilant body tossed about on the couch.

Sasha had taken up his position looking out over the metropolis awake and bustling on Yom Kippur morning. At his window with the telephone and the short wave radio on at his elbow, he watched the shoppers at the markets near the complex, their movements, the objects they carried, the cars and trucks which drove about. It was a Russian pleasure to take comfort in ordinariness, in an orderliness of struggle and consumption, on the verge of collapse. Patient and appalled, he waited for his room to be invaded and he destroyed.

The apartment stank of fever and vomit and ozone. Eli lay naked on his bed. It had been light for some time in the Austrian capitol. He was unable to move, almost to breathe. For thirty-six hours, he had lived inches from the leaking radioactive case beneath the box spring. A Greek army trampled the air, a disfigured woman screamed, a melody grew grotesque, a dissonant burlesque.

* * *

Pink-gold light filled Arie’s office as the sun glinted off the city and the Judean hills east toward Jordan. Brown stubble grew on his face. Scattered before him on his desk were reports from his remaining staff, the tan monograph, the ivory-bound bible. The government had isolated him completely, yet they had not moved against him. Occasionally before, a minister or functionary was allowed his maverick extremity. If what he said or did led to embarrassment or failure, the government found a way to disavow their instrument. Yet Arie’s isolation was such that he was beyond being any government’s plot or strategy. He was solely an instrument of human opposition. At his desk, he worked to finish a last message to be wired to the world powers. Forging his protest, he worked to break the circle of silence, which had tightened around him.

The phone rang. It was security. Rami was at the compound’s entrance and wanted to come up. Through the wall of window, Arie saw his father standing by the checkpoint entrance; nearby was a sheroot taxi. The old man and the car and the slouching Arab driver waited in front of the agents guarding the compound. He told security to allow Rami through.

A knock sounded at his door. Rami entered, his wiry arms in short sleeves, the sport-jacket carried under his arm, the same tall man with white hair. Yet his father had changed. There was a pallor to his skin. Neutrally his eyes surveyed each object in the office. He glided about for a few seconds, past the computer console and the tables laden with books and files. “A remarkable place,” he said, his distracted voice peculiarly resonant, raw and teasing.

“I have only a few minutes to spare.”

But Rami still walked about. “Here we have Morris’ radioactive brick, even encased behind glass,” he said. “Nice and safe. Almost four decades ago he gave it to you. What wonderful years. When Morris visited us then, he was dismayed. He brought you this legacy, and what did you do? Seven years old, you played with it. A toy to play with. How your uncle yelled. The shy man shouted.” Rami sat down on one of the chrome chairs across from Arie at his desk. “He couldn’t help himself.”

“Ever since, I’ve hated such weapons.”

“Your aversions have a way of getting out of hand,” the old man grinned.

It was a burlesque Rami was enacting, and Arie cut in: “The bomb is part of mankind’s gamble now, and obviously we’re losing. The world is given the simplest choice between life and death, and each of its leaders is willing to choose death.”

“Yes, you’re right,” Rami’s voice was intimate and vulnerable now. “No one is choosing to let life be, to struggle on in nature, not to turn it into weapons of will.”

“I revolt against the weapons.”

“Yes,”Rami’s eyes flashed, “because these weapons mean the opposite of everything that is alive to you, the opposite of creating, of loving, of forgiveness, of struggle, of tolerance.” His father had become radiant and possessed, a presence, a mouth, beyond the being who had entered the room. He embodied all that Israel seemed to have lost. Yet the rigor of revolt sustained Arie, and he knew that Rami still circled. “Why, Arie, why can’t man accept the gift of his genes, of nature?”

“It’s a fallen world. Should I be telling you it’s a corrupt world, father?”

“No.” The survivor’s voice was suddenly cold, and now he stared at his son. “In an hour, Benjamin is sending a delegation here. I refused to join them. They will have a large escort, Arie—an army escort. Before they arrive, you must tell me where the bombs are and who are your operatives.”

“No.”

“Save yourself the humiliation and despair they’ll bring down on you.”

“No.”

“What if you’re killed or imprisoned? What if there should even be an accident? Your men will blow up their cities. Apocalypse will begin. Call a halt.”

“No, father. It will not happen because I will not stop this operation. If the world’s leaders contemplate nuclear war being waged here, they must not doubt that the horror will engulf them.”

Rami gazed at Arie as at a rock, an insect, not his son, no longer a man. The white haired survivor rose and paced. He picked up the ivory-bound bible on Arie’s desk and held it as if it were a stone. “Yes, they are barbaric. But you have rejected what makes you different from them. You are a man who threatens to use atomic bombs. For power, for protest: it makes no difference. Why have we bothered to crawl from the slime?”

“What I am doing,” Arie shouted, shaking his fist at the Nagasaki tile on the wall, “is to reveal power to itself. These men can be stopped only if the image of their horror is tangible, immediate, irrefutable.”

“Then man is hateful. He is evil,” Rami yelled. His body twisted and keened in a circle of rage. “Our lives are repulsive. We deserve to be destroyed.” He hurled the bible at the framed tile on the wall, and shards of glass exploded about the room. Arie rose from his desk and lunged at the old man.

“You’re pathetic, father,” he hissed in Rami’s face. “Your heart has failed. This pillar of fire is given to us, and if we ignore it, we will perish. The threat of it is the only language men understand.”

“Empty words,” his father whispered and began to cry. “I can’t tell you what death I’ve seen, I see, I foresee. There are no words to express it. And the words you use, they’re dead. You think you oppose the machine of nuclear war. But you’re hypnotized by it, just as the machine of the death camps hypnotized them. You’re a dead soul.”

“Goddamn it, what I say is just not what you want to hear. My words are not ‘humane.’ But the atomic world is not humane. What I say and do is the only way humanity will find the way back to itself.” Arie saw his father, a foot away, as if Rami were a distant figure on a charred landscape.

Rami sank to his knees. He cried at his son’s feet. Arie shrank back a space, stepping onto the shards of glass.

His father spoke in a hoarse whisper: “Must that beautiful being which is man take the shape you give it, Arie? You’re the representative of homo sapiens I must bow down to? You, my son, who fashion this fiery, evil image of revolt? Then I’ve fashioned an image too, and it’s false.” His throat choked with tears, and his mouth gagged out his words. “If this is so, all I believe is false. I am a dead man. I have no self, no son, no world.” The old man showered blows at his own body, his chest, his thighs. On his knees, his body began to tremble. “Everything I am is poison. I have no right to a voice, a mouth, to live, to speak. I must be silenced.” He ripped and beat at his face with his hands so that the blood came. “I cannot speak—my tongue, my mouth, I have no mouth.”

Rami curled on the floor into a posture of birth or sleep. The son was cast down into the landscape of death. He vanished as a person. Yet the twisting particle of life which was his revolt held, a tick of sound within the silence. Solely protest lived, almost the word alone, hypnotic and obscure, yet it was the language which housed what remained of his being, a black space enclosed by the language of his dialectic. Power and his revolt against it.

Rami lifted himself up. His lips and nostrils were bloodstained. His eyes turned and beheld Arie. A mechanical voice emerged from his father’s mouth.

“Something has never passed my lips, but I will say it now. I lived with this guilt all my life, and I believed it would be buried with me in the grave. Where does your hatred come from? You think you’re in revolt, but, Arie, you hate. A hatred greater than the self-hate which tortured your mother. What is its source within you? Not every survivor has it, not every child of survivors. The most brutally tortured mute their hate with despair. We even delude ourselves with hope. Why does your hatred go deeper?”

The father’s hoarse whisper emerged from the dead space around him.

“After Auschwitz when you were born, your mother had died within herself and this new-born animal gave her the sole motive to struggle back to life. For that reason, I embraced you as my son. We heard her screams when she was taken from us before the liberation. She was raped in the Nazis’ quarters. You were conceived. You were born. You live on.”

Rami’s face contracted to a rectangle of white flesh. Arie saw gazing at him the gaping holes, which were his eyes. Rami walked away, closing the door behind him.

His gorge rose. His body fluttered and trembled above the glass-strewn floor. The words Rami had uttered screamed on. They obliterated and exposed him as a sham, a corpse. Arie stumbled over the slivers of glass, a shattered mirror. Torturer and tortured were trapped within, and out of the shards the torturer stepped, coming to claim his body. A new being entered, and he saw the corpse of what he had been. The dead language of revolt betrayed the obscenity of his genesis.

He pressed his face against the unopenable wall of glass. The luminous, arid hills glared. He brought death to them when he had sought to strike water from the rock. His revolt arose from hate and will, not from the desiccated beauty before him. He saw a radiant cypress, olive trees, a forest of pine. He saw Rami and Israel wandering. Then everything joined together: the sun over the forest, thin threads of ash covering the land, his body joined and cleaving to Elena’s, the infinite silence of being, the golden vista of Jerusalem, the ineradicable image of a flash falling from the sky.

Arie let go his grip on the glass. He sat down at his desk and wrote out the names and locations of the four terrorists he commanded. Opening the drawer of his desk, he took out the loaded pistol, the remnant of the death camp. The barrel in his mouth, he pulled the trigger. The bullet hurtled through his skull.

* * *

Sayeed did not look at the odious dogs he drove past in his dilapidated truck packed now with explosives. He was living in an eternal present, alert, floating above the multitude, feeling nothing but scorn for everything around him. A stream of incantations flowed through him, verses and imprecations filled with images of the ruin and destruction to be wrought by him, the falling building, the slaying of the false, the proud. Two blocks from the fate he would embrace, he noticed a peculiar commotion before him, and he slowed his truck to a crawl.

It was incredible. Rather that the Sabbath and Holy Day laxity he expected, there was a roadblock ahead and a cordon of military vehicles filling the street. A squadron of soldiers was visible in the parking lot. Emerging slowly from the mass of men and trucks was a decrepit Arab taxi. He must decide what to do instantly. He could plow his pickup into the roadblock, the crowd of trucks and men, and the taxi emerging from the lot and pointed directly toward him. Or he could turn at the corner and save his terrible load for another time, perhaps another place than this Mossad building which was now unreachable.

A glaring smile formed on his face. He turned, and floating on a wave of power and hatred, he drove his dusty lethal truck back toward the Arab Quarter. He drove east, insignificant and terrible, committed to the purity of his idea: the use of terror to resurrect the Palestinian nation. No one noticed him as he passed undetected, a deadly wraith haunting Israel’s streets.

* * *

Elena sat in the living room of their apartment. An Israeli novel lay unopened by her on the couch, and she stared across the room. She could not blot out her last sight of Arie standing in his office, frozen in rage. She felt helpless before the gap between them, and she knew that the failure was not only his but hers as well.

She heard distant children’s voices. Gily was playing on the slope in back of their flat, and Moshe was still in his bedroom, sleeping late after his flight. It was the morning of Yom Kippur. Arie was not home. Normally they would witness the nation’s observance everywhere around them, the atonement as ancient as the blood baked into Israel’s earth. The day would pass slowly. They would float together in airless space. But Elena was alone. Waiting for the approach of noon, the emptiness of the holy day suffocated her.

The telephone began to ring. It would be Arie. She walked wavering to the phone and picked it up. She heard Rami’s voice distant and exhausted.

“Elena.”

“Rami. What is it?”

“Sit down on the couch,” he said softly; “listen to me. Call Moshe to the phone.”

As she called him, she imagined Rami was hurt, struck by a car, beaten up; the shock and nakedness of his voice terrified. “What’s happened to you?”

“I must tell you something, Elena. Arie is dead.”

She plummeted through the air. Her eyes began to stream, and a whimper sang in her throat.

“Elena,”he cried. “Moshe. Call Moshe to the phone.”

She screamed her son’s name. Barefoot in his pajamas, he ran down the hall and picked up the phone she dropped. He sat by her, speaking with his grandfather.

“Dad killed himself!” he cried.

“No more! Not another word!” she called out, covering her ears with her hands. Her last hold was loosed, and she tumbled in an arc above the earth, in a region of ice and fire. Then she soared beyond the boundaries of her hatred. Its object vanished. Only the corpse remained.

Elena sat on the couch and quietly screamed and plummeted. Her son moaned, rocking slowly back and forth next to her. He gasped for air and began crying in heaving breaths. She reached to gather him in her arms, and she held him until the gulping cries quieted.

Then she stood and glided, automatic and possessed, through the room to the credenza in the dining area. She took out and placed on the dining table a box of candy, a bottle of brandy, the half-consumed chocolate cake. Her dazed voice rang out, “You must eat.” She went to the kitchen and brought plates, silver, glasses, a dish of cold lamb, a wilted salad, cold pilaf, chalah. She made her son stand and walk and sit with her at the table. Moaning, he began to take small mouthfuls of the sacrilegious food. She poured him a glass brandy and made him sip.

Moshe began to talk, and Elena listened to the distant voice rising from his throat. It was a sin to have done this to her son, to take an axe and hack him down. Tears came from her eyes, and quiet crying came from her mouth. The youth stood up from the table. He walked to his mother and held her head against him.

* * *

Jaeger kneeled across the room from Haim. The smell of blood and ozone was in the room, and he wiped his hand down his nose and across his unshaven upper lip. By him on a table were Arie’s instructions, and open on the floor was the suitcase baring the nuclear bomb and its triggering device. The American did not call his handler. Instead he sat studying the instructions, glancing occasionally at Haim’s body. With sudden decision, he began to work at the timing device. He set it for a half-hour, to coincide with noon in Jerusalem. Then he opened the door to the fifth floor hall. In front of him two Israeli agents trained their machine guns on him.

Eli lay on his bed as the bomb in its faulty, radioactive case was hoisted into a steel chest. Two men in glittering, radiation-proof suits lifted the agent onto a stretcher. His body, twisted in an arc of retching, was marked by sores. His eyes and mouth were inflamed.

The patio doors admitted a glimmer of light as sunrise neared in Washington. The urban vista beyond the glass flickered in a steady, mechanical pattern. It was all a matter of indifference to Dan: Arie’s instructions discarded on the table, the phone knocked off its cradle, the suitcase open before him on the living room floor, the image trembling on the nearby television screen. Sweat poured from his face and body. He kneeled slowly over the case and moved in mechanized gestures as he worked with the triggering device for the nuclear bomb. He set it for fifteen minutes when it would be noon in Jerusalem. Then he sat cross-legged in front of the purring, black case.

There were no messages, no communication from Arie. Listening to the television, he heard that Israeli fighter-bombers were on highest alert in the air on Israel’s borders and out over the Mediterranean. Protests were being exchanged back and forth among the world powers and the Middle Eastern nations, and Iraq’s threats had only intensified. The suitcase with its bomb was open on the floor of his room, but Sasha did not even glance at it now. Instead he sat with clenched hands by the phone, the radio, the television. He had continually to control an impulse to weep. It is nearly noon in Jerusalem. What if the imperial bureaucrats and paranoiac leaders of the world wage nuclear war in Israel and the Gulf? What next? Though soon the Secret Service will come to bear me away. Death will be the welcome blossom of my grief.

* * *

Jerusalem stretches before Rami as noon approaches. Alone and with the wrenching roar of grief in his ears, he climbs the stairs to the Temple Mount, to the high expanse of Haram ech Sharif, with its edge atop the western Wailing Wall.

The tissue of lies must crust and scar. All these acts of terror and contrition must remain unrecorded. Lying is our only chance. If not, man would long ago have perished of the truth. If not, my lie is as obscene as the horror which maddened Arie. No Nazi spawned my son. I, his father, became the Nazi thrusting him into the fire.

How can I endure except to lie, to imagine the presence of hope? In this world, there is so much contempt for the human in the name of purity—the only recourse is to act as if hope exists. Hope’s illusion is the child of possibility, the brother of acceptance, the father of forgiving. But, no, I’ve released an unforgivable lie into the maw of silence. It’s I who should have died, not my child, my flesh, my soul. I know only that Israel will not now bear the final blame.

I had to lie to you, Elena. How could I tell you the truth? You too would die to me. Moshe and Gily would be lost forever. I could not endure it. I want the children to live.

But it may not be. Soon, enemy missiles may flash out of this crystal sky and drop their nuclear blast on Jerusalem. An archaeologist in a thousand years may dig into the transfigured earth like the earth over Troy. Will he find a crater where once lived hundreds of thousands? Will he imagine a wall of steel speeding down on Temple Mount and out to the Garden of Gethsemane, to Mount Zion and the surrounding suburbs? Will he see that from this crucible arose a globe of fire, burning to ash all within the crater? Will the evidence of fire be found not only in the burnt circle and its rim of rubble, but miles away in the skeletons of buildings, of animals, of men? Will he test the earth and discover that it was ravaged by radiation spewed by the blast over all Israel and beyond? But who will be left to excavate Jerusalem? Death will come to all—if not now, later; if not later, now.

The flesh of cities everywhere may be interred. The radiating earth will tear at testicles and ovaries, and the mutated race will yield up the earth to insects and tufts of grass: the species which tears the future to shreds.

Over the elevated mount, Rami bears the weight of his body past the gold mosque where Mohammed leapt to heaven and where Isaac bound beheld the fire. Finally, with the helpless tears of mourning in his eyes, he stumbles to the sheer, southern edge with the Golden Gate bricked below.

Arie, you were born amid memories of the Nazi camps, and the machine of death transformed you. I failed you. I did not teach you to transfigure, to give the lie to savagery and hate. Didn’t you know the furnaces shed no light? Now will Jerusalem vanish into death’s oven? Will mankind follow you into the blackening fire?

I saw your head shot away. But already before your skull hung open, my Arie had vanished.

Moslem voices wail their call to prayer. It is noon. Warplane streak through the blank sunlit sky. He stares at the white globe shining down on Jerusalem. Everywhere he looks now, there is the black disc of the sun’s absence.

I hear no sound: nothing is said. Jerusalem’s streets are hushed.

An infinity of death. Words vanish.


—Cleveland, Berkeley, Fresno, Cambridge, Jerusalem: 1982-2012